Yes, I did not see her, but thats not the point.
The youth center tunred out to be only a excuse for drinking.
And the event, that took place in the club I always go, sucked too. As did the DJ there. ... The damn ugly girls ... The permanent smell of throw - up in the air ... and the whole day ...
AND THE WORST THING: I waited the whole week for that one day ...
But on the other hand I discovered something ... How much this girl is messing with my head.
I mean, she looked to me! SHE talked to me! And SHE smiled to me! ... And I can't get her out of my system ...
Greg the Mad
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Consol Done
Yep, the few hours I spend on my consol class were enougth to finish it to a certain level. I can create requests now, toogle it on and off, etc.
Its not much yet, mainly because there is not much you can control in a simple prototype. Now I have to figure out what to do next.
I may already hade some thoughts about that, but now that I noticed the weakness of my LapTops graphic card (only 60 FPS max wenn I go on full screen ...), ... so it has to be something not that graphic intensive. I thought of creating a better engine background (thinking of the Screen Manager sample) and how to implent a level editor stuff into the code, or revers? ...
And now to something complet different.
Next saturday will be entertaining.
First I got a presentation at school (in the english class) about solar systems. The specail thing about that will be a programm I've found in the internet long time ago. Its a little application, based on the irrlicht engine, where you can view our solar system in 3D.
Later that day I plan to appear at the opening of a local youth-center. That what makes that specail is that is made by some people I was in school a decade ago. Lets see how much 'Loser' I'm today :P
And, well, later in the evening I will join the little party people we already are, and drive into the club.
...
...
Two chances where I could meet HER ... dammit
Greg the Mad
Its not much yet, mainly because there is not much you can control in a simple prototype. Now I have to figure out what to do next.
I may already hade some thoughts about that, but now that I noticed the weakness of my LapTops graphic card (only 60 FPS max wenn I go on full screen ...), ... so it has to be something not that graphic intensive. I thought of creating a better engine background (thinking of the Screen Manager sample) and how to implent a level editor stuff into the code, or revers? ...
And now to something complet different.
Next saturday will be entertaining.
First I got a presentation at school (in the english class) about solar systems. The specail thing about that will be a programm I've found in the internet long time ago. Its a little application, based on the irrlicht engine, where you can view our solar system in 3D.
Later that day I plan to appear at the opening of a local youth-center. That what makes that specail is that is made by some people I was in school a decade ago. Lets see how much 'Loser' I'm today :P
And, well, later in the evening I will join the little party people we already are, and drive into the club.
...
...
Two chances where I could meet HER ... dammit
Greg the Mad
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Consol Reanimation
First, don't buy Spore.
You'll play it all day long, fight your way through the sea, battle creatures, form alliences, and you travel to the center of the galaxie (42).
Its fun, its challanging, its great, but now after a week, after I've talked with Steve, I some how don't feel that well any more.
Yes I could still spend some time in geting more and more planets, raise their terraform levels to 3 and make the protected from attack, not to metion the fun of destroind whole live forms because they woun't join your empire (and I'm talking about a good epmire).
But for what? Did I take a little guy and made him the big guy? Did I felt a great story? Did I raise a empire that every one is scared of?
NO! Especial the last part hurts. Even if you got the best weapons on your home world and some orbital weapons to protect it, you still have (or your called) to stop your galactice battle against the Grox's because one single pirate ship is stealing from your homeworld. WTF?
To be honst, I got the feeling that as more you try to protect your worlds, as more the pirates will attack them. My first colonie 'Bär' (I didn't even could give it a name ;( ) is attacked every half, as is the one colonie, at the edge of the galaxie arm, I own which got a T-Level of Zero and is as productive as the level. But the one home planet I took over from some aliens, which is one of the best planets I got, is never attacked by anything ... nor is ther are a problem with the animals ther, and that even if I don't have any stuff like orbital weapons, or bio-stabilicer there ...
Anyway, I also woun't play it that often the next time as it also showed me again how much fun programming is, ... no game can ever beat the fun of programming games. Yes, you can quote this one.
I'm now working on some little engien assets like a consol class, which takes care of the in-game developer interface, like frames per seconds and a field to enter commands. I already got the FPS and the field to enter commands, but ther are no commands I could enter yet :p
That will be done somewhen in the next days, then I will take care of the communication of the engine classes itself, for example if I want the whole game to stop while I'm entering a command, but only the game updating when I swich in to dev-view, etc.
So I think that I will create a class that will take care of that, but I don't know how I will realise it, thinking of the Gamestate Manager Sample stuff, with different screens, etc.
So long.
Greg the Mad
You'll play it all day long, fight your way through the sea, battle creatures, form alliences, and you travel to the center of the galaxie (42).
Its fun, its challanging, its great, but now after a week, after I've talked with Steve, I some how don't feel that well any more.
Yes I could still spend some time in geting more and more planets, raise their terraform levels to 3 and make the protected from attack, not to metion the fun of destroind whole live forms because they woun't join your empire (and I'm talking about a good epmire).
But for what? Did I take a little guy and made him the big guy? Did I felt a great story? Did I raise a empire that every one is scared of?
NO! Especial the last part hurts. Even if you got the best weapons on your home world and some orbital weapons to protect it, you still have (or your called) to stop your galactice battle against the Grox's because one single pirate ship is stealing from your homeworld. WTF?
To be honst, I got the feeling that as more you try to protect your worlds, as more the pirates will attack them. My first colonie 'Bär' (I didn't even could give it a name ;( ) is attacked every half, as is the one colonie, at the edge of the galaxie arm, I own which got a T-Level of Zero and is as productive as the level. But the one home planet I took over from some aliens, which is one of the best planets I got, is never attacked by anything ... nor is ther are a problem with the animals ther, and that even if I don't have any stuff like orbital weapons, or bio-stabilicer there ...
Anyway, I also woun't play it that often the next time as it also showed me again how much fun programming is, ... no game can ever beat the fun of programming games. Yes, you can quote this one.
I'm now working on some little engien assets like a consol class, which takes care of the in-game developer interface, like frames per seconds and a field to enter commands. I already got the FPS and the field to enter commands, but ther are no commands I could enter yet :p
That will be done somewhen in the next days, then I will take care of the communication of the engine classes itself, for example if I want the whole game to stop while I'm entering a command, but only the game updating when I swich in to dev-view, etc.
So I think that I will create a class that will take care of that, but I don't know how I will realise it, thinking of the Gamestate Manager Sample stuff, with different screens, etc.
So long.
Greg the Mad
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Man of Power
It was a qite clear election.
It were 3 people who volomtered for that position of the class representative, each one of the class could choose one of those 3 as a first place representative and one as a vice representative ... I was elected 15 times as the main representative from 20 people ...
So, ok, ... what are the powers of a class presentative? ...
Greg the Mad
It were 3 people who volomtered for that position of the class representative, each one of the class could choose one of those 3 as a first place representative and one as a vice representative ... I was elected 15 times as the main representative from 20 people ...
So, ok, ... what are the powers of a class presentative? ...
Greg the Mad
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Man of the people
Weekend again ... later about that.
In school it appears that I'm in the outsider position again, now that the only gyu I realy could have fun with, is gone (he had into the lower level school class ... its complicated).
I'm may not the worst outsider, the is still that fat guy who noone realy 'likes'. I try to be polite to him, try to treat him as a usual guy, cause I know how it is to be like him, but he got something on him ... he makes unfunny jokes, he got a wired voice, etc.
Ok, I'm may the outsider, I may didn't managed to get a project (yet), but my influence gets bigger.
You know my last post? Ther I've talked about a curtain for the class entrens door. Its hanging ther now and people realy like it, even if its not the sigtproofed as hoped ...
Anyway, I'm now the guy to whom people go if they need something, like the replaye the clock, make the hole in the cross bigger, etc. That may sound anouing but I like that job, I'm just a nice guy who likes to help. And that could be usefull on my way to world dommination.
We don't got a class representative ... and the old was not the most beloved ever ... I may, with a loot of luck, could become the representative. Students trust me, teacher trust me, I'm able to forfill a tast, I can tak over responsability, etc. What do you need more, except luck?
So the next time the head of the class enter the room and wants to elect the representative I will vollumtire, and if they think that the other guy who want to get that position I'll just tell them that the representative will have to held a speech at the end of the year ... they woun't have him holding the speech ...
... Anyway ... still weekend.
I can be 90% sure that she woun't be ther tonight, as ther is one of that stupid Fire Depatment fests in town ... Imagen 100 people in all ages (from 10 up) drinking to celebrating the life itself ... pointless drinking, something you can't tell me that this is good.
Well, and she, I guess, got the friends that will be there, and so she will join them.
But on the other hand that means that I can enjoy the night and may be able to talk to someone more mind consuming ...
... I just shivered as I've writen the last three words ... But if shes more mind consuming *shiver* and I got her number ... better then befor.
... 18:52 ... I'll head down now, take a shower and call up the guys. So long.
Greg the Mad
In school it appears that I'm in the outsider position again, now that the only gyu I realy could have fun with, is gone (he had into the lower level school class ... its complicated).
I'm may not the worst outsider, the is still that fat guy who noone realy 'likes'. I try to be polite to him, try to treat him as a usual guy, cause I know how it is to be like him, but he got something on him ... he makes unfunny jokes, he got a wired voice, etc.
Ok, I'm may the outsider, I may didn't managed to get a project (yet), but my influence gets bigger.
You know my last post? Ther I've talked about a curtain for the class entrens door. Its hanging ther now and people realy like it, even if its not the sigtproofed as hoped ...
Anyway, I'm now the guy to whom people go if they need something, like the replaye the clock, make the hole in the cross bigger, etc. That may sound anouing but I like that job, I'm just a nice guy who likes to help. And that could be usefull on my way to world dommination.
We don't got a class representative ... and the old was not the most beloved ever ... I may, with a loot of luck, could become the representative. Students trust me, teacher trust me, I'm able to forfill a tast, I can tak over responsability, etc. What do you need more, except luck?
So the next time the head of the class enter the room and wants to elect the representative I will vollumtire, and if they think that the other guy who want to get that position I'll just tell them that the representative will have to held a speech at the end of the year ... they woun't have him holding the speech ...
... Anyway ... still weekend.
I can be 90% sure that she woun't be ther tonight, as ther is one of that stupid Fire Depatment fests in town ... Imagen 100 people in all ages (from 10 up) drinking to celebrating the life itself ... pointless drinking, something you can't tell me that this is good.
Well, and she, I guess, got the friends that will be there, and so she will join them.
But on the other hand that means that I can enjoy the night and may be able to talk to someone more mind consuming ...
... I just shivered as I've writen the last three words ... But if shes more mind consuming *shiver* and I got her number ... better then befor.
... 18:52 ... I'll head down now, take a shower and call up the guys. So long.
Greg the Mad
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
School again ...
Its terrible.
I may woun't get a project, two other had stolen the teacher who had a subject for me ... now I have to look first for a different project and second find some one to make it with.
Its just not that great as I hoped it would be, but that also my appear so because to day was a hard day ... do you know how hard it is to get a pearl curtain? Or how expensive a mirro ball is? Now that mirro ball is probably the one thing that if I don't get it into the class room will hunt me down the rest of my life ... maybe I could make one myself ...
I'm down ... -.-
Greg the Mad
I may woun't get a project, two other had stolen the teacher who had a subject for me ... now I have to look first for a different project and second find some one to make it with.
Its just not that great as I hoped it would be, but that also my appear so because to day was a hard day ... do you know how hard it is to get a pearl curtain? Or how expensive a mirro ball is? Now that mirro ball is probably the one thing that if I don't get it into the class room will hunt me down the rest of my life ... maybe I could make one myself ...
I'm down ... -.-
Greg the Mad
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Physic Screen Shot
Jep, its gone and now I can make up to 60 push ups now (15 - 4 times).
I've also made some serious programming lately, I finaly made some progress in the moment of inertia calculation.
First I planed to get the projeced shape of the mesh through ray tracing, but then a nice guy from the XNA community told me that the CPU is not quite build for such kind of calculation, the GPU is more made for it. So I just thought "Well, so why don't make it on the GPU?"
In the beginning I thought that there would be somethimg like that in the SpaceWar starter kid of XNA, but I was misstaking, but something like that dose no break me down. I just looked in the internet for a way to get a screen shot from a game, took that code changed it a bit (camera position, projection matrix, and general purpose), and done.
What I actually do is taking a screen shoot from the model I want the moment of inertia from. I just place the camera so that it face the model from a special direction (like from above) and use a orthogonal matrix. Furthermore I use a black background (GraphicDevice.Clear(Color.Black)) and I also set some rendering effect so that the model is white. What I get (or should get, I stilll got some problems with the quat that should diplay the new screen) is a white silouet of the model on a black background, now I got that I just have to make the moment of inertia calculation for each white point in this pic.
Its not finished yet, nor tested, but it appears to work fine for the moment and to be a loot easyer then I expected moment of inertia calculation to be.
I'm proud of my self. *giving myself a pat on the back*
Good boy.
And I hope that I see here this evening ...
Greg the Mad
I've also made some serious programming lately, I finaly made some progress in the moment of inertia calculation.
First I planed to get the projeced shape of the mesh through ray tracing, but then a nice guy from the XNA community told me that the CPU is not quite build for such kind of calculation, the GPU is more made for it. So I just thought "Well, so why don't make it on the GPU?"
In the beginning I thought that there would be somethimg like that in the SpaceWar starter kid of XNA, but I was misstaking, but something like that dose no break me down. I just looked in the internet for a way to get a screen shot from a game, took that code changed it a bit (camera position, projection matrix, and general purpose), and done.
What I actually do is taking a screen shoot from the model I want the moment of inertia from. I just place the camera so that it face the model from a special direction (like from above) and use a orthogonal matrix. Furthermore I use a black background (GraphicDevice.Clear(Color.Black)) and I also set some rendering effect so that the model is white. What I get (or should get, I stilll got some problems with the quat that should diplay the new screen) is a white silouet of the model on a black background, now I got that I just have to make the moment of inertia calculation for each white point in this pic.
Its not finished yet, nor tested, but it appears to work fine for the moment and to be a loot easyer then I expected moment of inertia calculation to be.
I'm proud of my self. *giving myself a pat on the back*
Good boy.
And I hope that I see here this evening ...
Greg the Mad
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Belly pain
That may sound like I just got a punsh into my abdomen, but its more because I tried to pull myself up on a tree ... only using my arms.
I know that ther is a special english word for that, but my internet is to slow today to look for it.
Anyway, this little pain can lead to big trouble if I'm not care full. I could stop making my nice little training units I've made the last weeks (you can't make situps with that pain), but I now have to stop it, or I will never get rid of that pain ... you can't imagen how often you use those muscles ...
What happended else the last few days ... right!
I made some little adjustments on my few new classes so they should work better, but I still have some probems with the Force.Draw method, so I'm little stuck at the moment as I need to know how the forces look, befor I can manipulate them. (I stoped the LS, ... mainly because after a full night of thinking for what I could use it, I came up with nothing, ... its a sign)
Well I still got that girl in my mind, but no I didn't saw her again last weekend, but I had a beautifull dream ... such dreams a rare. It was one of those were you fill so warm and fuzzy all around ... *dream* ... But with my luck I will see her again ...
... in two years.
Today I'm a little numb, because of my belly and that I sleeped again till noon ... 12 houres of sleep are too much, so that was it for the update. -.-
Greg the Mad
I know that ther is a special english word for that, but my internet is to slow today to look for it.
Anyway, this little pain can lead to big trouble if I'm not care full. I could stop making my nice little training units I've made the last weeks (you can't make situps with that pain), but I now have to stop it, or I will never get rid of that pain ... you can't imagen how often you use those muscles ...
What happended else the last few days ... right!
I made some little adjustments on my few new classes so they should work better, but I still have some probems with the Force.Draw method, so I'm little stuck at the moment as I need to know how the forces look, befor I can manipulate them. (I stoped the LS, ... mainly because after a full night of thinking for what I could use it, I came up with nothing, ... its a sign)
Well I still got that girl in my mind, but no I didn't saw her again last weekend, but I had a beautifull dream ... such dreams a rare. It was one of those were you fill so warm and fuzzy all around ... *dream* ... But with my luck I will see her again ...
... in two years.
Today I'm a little numb, because of my belly and that I sleeped again till noon ... 12 houres of sleep are too much, so that was it for the update. -.-
Greg the Mad
Friday, August 22, 2008
Ther you go.
There you want to write a Force Control System (FCS), but you end up with a Layer System (LS).
Well, what happened?
I got good experience with the DrawableGameComponents of XNA, so I use them everywher I can. As did I in the Programme where I wanted to create the FCS, but after a few hours of work, setting some new classes up (like a new grid class, or FPS class), a old problem crossed my path, that sometimes it can happen that models get drawn atop each other and not in a real 3D space.
So I finaly wrote a post about that on the XNA boards, and DING, a day later a know the source of the problem and know how to actually use that problem to create a LS.
It may will take a day till I realy got something I can show, but once it done ... it will be awsome!
And now about something complet different:
Well shes still hovering around in my mind, on a day like this, wher I got something to do, its not that hard, but who knows what will be tommorow? The day I might will see her again? ... ... *fingercrossing*
... Fingercrossing to realy see her and talk to her, or not to see her at all, everything in between would be ... dumb again ...
Greg the Mad
Well, what happened?
I got good experience with the DrawableGameComponents of XNA, so I use them everywher I can. As did I in the Programme where I wanted to create the FCS, but after a few hours of work, setting some new classes up (like a new grid class, or FPS class), a old problem crossed my path, that sometimes it can happen that models get drawn atop each other and not in a real 3D space.
So I finaly wrote a post about that on the XNA boards, and DING, a day later a know the source of the problem and know how to actually use that problem to create a LS.
It may will take a day till I realy got something I can show, but once it done ... it will be awsome!
And now about something complet different:
Well shes still hovering around in my mind, on a day like this, wher I got something to do, its not that hard, but who knows what will be tommorow? The day I might will see her again? ... ... *fingercrossing*
... Fingercrossing to realy see her and talk to her, or not to see her at all, everything in between would be ... dumb again ...
Greg the Mad
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
At least something
Its will take time till I forgot her, but only if I don't she her again.
The last time it took me a few years, I only saw her a few hours this time so I would estimate a few mothe this time.
Anyway, I did make some progress to day, no not about her, but about my game.
My next step would be to use the player input and change them into force.
Yes Forces.
In the real world everything gets moved though forces, why not too in the game world?
So the first thing I will creat is a system to calculat the forced for normal movements, like following a path or rotation. Later I will set some and think about how to do that if my forces can only be applyed in a certain way. So I could use that system for ships which got thier thrusters turned down, so that they can hover.
I don't know how long it will take me to that point, as every second thought is about someone else, but with my new way of developmet (building it all up like Lego) I could make a line a week, but every line would be real progress.
Hopefully she will be ther next saturday ...
Greg the Mad
The last time it took me a few years, I only saw her a few hours this time so I would estimate a few mothe this time.
Anyway, I did make some progress to day, no not about her, but about my game.
My next step would be to use the player input and change them into force.
Yes Forces.
In the real world everything gets moved though forces, why not too in the game world?
So the first thing I will creat is a system to calculat the forced for normal movements, like following a path or rotation. Later I will set some and think about how to do that if my forces can only be applyed in a certain way. So I could use that system for ships which got thier thrusters turned down, so that they can hover.
I don't know how long it will take me to that point, as every second thought is about someone else, but with my new way of developmet (building it all up like Lego) I could make a line a week, but every line would be real progress.
Hopefully she will be ther next saturday ...
Greg the Mad
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Well after all ...
I'm still not over her.
Its quite interesting, if I would not have met her, last week, I probably would now be sitting, working on my hybrid ship, form my next game prototyp, maybe would have found a nother nice girl, and would be happy.
But I met her. So I'm sitting her writing a nother update for my blog, hoping that to write my thougths down would make it easyer.
In fact did I nothing else the whole last week then to stitte her and listen sad songs (most of the time).
I may have continued my work on my space ship (I'll post a pic once ints done), I may have get myslef finaly a belt, I may dicoverd that shaving every two days is more dangerouse then just once a week (I'll stay with the once a week timing). But the whole week I waited for yesterday.
... Sucks, as ther was nothing yesterday.
I drove to my favorite club, ... which was closed that night. Well.
Lets hope for next weekend. If I meet her again next saturday, I'll try it.
I'll try to talk to her, even if she revuse to talke to me, that would be much better, as I would know how she thinks about me. If I don't meet her, ... well then I got at least some other kind of answer too. She knows where I'm at the weekend.
Last thursday I was out too, and while I was walking through the crowed of people I saw once of her friends. Once she noticed me she suddenly steped asaid, letting me pass, I'm not sure, but ther was something in her look, something like 'He's here!' and I may could have imagen that but I think that she reached for her cell as I passed. But I didn't saw HER that night.
I'm writing with out any connection to the last paragraph, dose I?
Greg the Mad
Its quite interesting, if I would not have met her, last week, I probably would now be sitting, working on my hybrid ship, form my next game prototyp, maybe would have found a nother nice girl, and would be happy.
But I met her. So I'm sitting her writing a nother update for my blog, hoping that to write my thougths down would make it easyer.
In fact did I nothing else the whole last week then to stitte her and listen sad songs (most of the time).
I may have continued my work on my space ship (I'll post a pic once ints done), I may have get myslef finaly a belt, I may dicoverd that shaving every two days is more dangerouse then just once a week (I'll stay with the once a week timing). But the whole week I waited for yesterday.
... Sucks, as ther was nothing yesterday.
I drove to my favorite club, ... which was closed that night. Well.
Lets hope for next weekend. If I meet her again next saturday, I'll try it.
I'll try to talk to her, even if she revuse to talke to me, that would be much better, as I would know how she thinks about me. If I don't meet her, ... well then I got at least some other kind of answer too. She knows where I'm at the weekend.
Last thursday I was out too, and while I was walking through the crowed of people I saw once of her friends. Once she noticed me she suddenly steped asaid, letting me pass, I'm not sure, but ther was something in her look, something like 'He's here!' and I may could have imagen that but I think that she reached for her cell as I passed. But I didn't saw HER that night.
I'm writing with out any connection to the last paragraph, dose I?
Greg the Mad
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Quite Personal Update
Screwed me.
Any girl.
If any girl would have gretted me last saturday, I would be fine to day, I may even would be happy, thinking about what to some next time I enter the location. But even if ther would have been no girl last weekend, I still would do better then I do now.
Lieing in bed at night, reviewing what happened last weekend, wondering what will happen next, IF there is anything to happen. Sitting infront to a WoW Beta, guessing what I could do wrong if somethings happens. Wondering about those legs.
You don't know what I'm taking about? Well lets start at the begining.
As I was still young, fresh and in the 5th grad.
Well, I always was that outsider typ guy, standing in the corner, with some other guy I called friends, normaly far away from the ... 'cool' lot.
But a part of that lot was a girl. That that was special about that girl was not that she didn't hate me like the others did, but she also laught about my jokes, despite the fackt that the most of those jokes where about her and how short she is growing.
So the years passed, and I made a lot of jokes about her, in the 8th grad I started to believe that she hates me for those jokes (~4 years of jokes about her, she must have hated me at that time).
After the 8th grad we all walked different way. The 'cool' lot started to get them self some jobs, or little more school education. I was one of the few to actually make a heigher education, so did she, just a different school in a different city.
So you may can imagen how often we have seen. But never the les, those few sights were enougth that I started to realize that I like her. Realy liked her. Thought about her even if I didn't had seen her for month. Holding a picure of her in my mind.
Slowly time passed and I started to forget about her. I never saw her anymore, and started thinking about other girls I've mett over time. Getting other pictures.
To be pricise about it, I completly forgot her, don't even bothing about how she would be thies days.
I was lifing happiely, was thinking about a lot of other girl, but mainly thinking on how I could become a great Game Designer one day. Girls only were a asset to that dream. Happy feeling where striped to songs, and no picutes on my mind anymore.
Till last weekent.
It was my second time in that location. After a few shy tries I started to make some moves on the dance floor, and as I realized that no one cares about me making those wired movements, I realy freaked out and started dancing (I actually think that I'm a good dancer, but I'm not in the position to judge this now).
Two eys.
A short glance.
First I thought 'Hey, I know that face', and then 'Hey, thats that girl I once used to make jokes about', 'Whats her name?', 'She turned out to be a good looking girl', '... those legs ...'
... And I hade some other thoughts ...
'... Did she just looked to me?!?'
'Woops, I think she remembers me too.'
'Hm? Where did she went? ... And who trys to grap my shoulder at my left ...'
"Hi, long time not seen..." she said.
It was a short dialog, not longer then a minute and strongly muffeled by the background sounds that was the dance music. We talked about what we're making at the moment and what we have done to get ther.
In the middle of that she was forced by her following girls to go with them to the restroom. A minute is not much time to share information, but it can have a great impact on other things.
Later our eyes crossed each other once in a while, ... probably because I was danceing just two meter away from her, ... with my back to her, as I tried to focus on some other potential girl.
But steping on a foot that belongs to a friend of her, made me turn once, and the other time I set down to relax a few minutes (I probably was the only dancer in that club that didn't got some alcohole, nor other stuff in his blood, and so I needed a rest once in a while), she and her girls stand next to me, with their back to me giving a perfect view of her legs, as they watched other people dance. Again with some movements of people, causeing us to see each other.
She did smile. I'm sure about that. I didn't imagen that.
Anyway, she leaft a hour before I did, she didn't sayed goodby.
Any girl.
Any girl that I would have tracked with my eyes that night, ... I could have walked up to her and talk to her, or even dance with her.
But she ... we got a history. I know her and she knows me (at least she knows my past, and I'm not proud of my 'stupid' past). I can't just go to her and start talking ... not without a couse ... not without seeing her.
Well and that why I'm sitting here, infront of my PC, wondering if I actually will see her again, were that might be, or if she dose like me too.
Not to mention how hard it is to get those legs out of your mind.
Greg the Mad
Any girl.
If any girl would have gretted me last saturday, I would be fine to day, I may even would be happy, thinking about what to some next time I enter the location. But even if ther would have been no girl last weekend, I still would do better then I do now.
Lieing in bed at night, reviewing what happened last weekend, wondering what will happen next, IF there is anything to happen. Sitting infront to a WoW Beta, guessing what I could do wrong if somethings happens. Wondering about those legs.
You don't know what I'm taking about? Well lets start at the begining.
As I was still young, fresh and in the 5th grad.
Well, I always was that outsider typ guy, standing in the corner, with some other guy I called friends, normaly far away from the ... 'cool' lot.
But a part of that lot was a girl. That that was special about that girl was not that she didn't hate me like the others did, but she also laught about my jokes, despite the fackt that the most of those jokes where about her and how short she is growing.
So the years passed, and I made a lot of jokes about her, in the 8th grad I started to believe that she hates me for those jokes (~4 years of jokes about her, she must have hated me at that time).
After the 8th grad we all walked different way. The 'cool' lot started to get them self some jobs, or little more school education. I was one of the few to actually make a heigher education, so did she, just a different school in a different city.
So you may can imagen how often we have seen. But never the les, those few sights were enougth that I started to realize that I like her. Realy liked her. Thought about her even if I didn't had seen her for month. Holding a picure of her in my mind.
Slowly time passed and I started to forget about her. I never saw her anymore, and started thinking about other girls I've mett over time. Getting other pictures.
To be pricise about it, I completly forgot her, don't even bothing about how she would be thies days.
I was lifing happiely, was thinking about a lot of other girl, but mainly thinking on how I could become a great Game Designer one day. Girls only were a asset to that dream. Happy feeling where striped to songs, and no picutes on my mind anymore.
Till last weekent.
It was my second time in that location. After a few shy tries I started to make some moves on the dance floor, and as I realized that no one cares about me making those wired movements, I realy freaked out and started dancing (I actually think that I'm a good dancer, but I'm not in the position to judge this now).
Two eys.
A short glance.
First I thought 'Hey, I know that face', and then 'Hey, thats that girl I once used to make jokes about', 'Whats her name?', 'She turned out to be a good looking girl', '... those legs ...'
... And I hade some other thoughts ...
'... Did she just looked to me?!?'
'Woops, I think she remembers me too.'
'Hm? Where did she went? ... And who trys to grap my shoulder at my left ...'
"Hi, long time not seen..." she said.
It was a short dialog, not longer then a minute and strongly muffeled by the background sounds that was the dance music. We talked about what we're making at the moment and what we have done to get ther.
In the middle of that she was forced by her following girls to go with them to the restroom. A minute is not much time to share information, but it can have a great impact on other things.
Later our eyes crossed each other once in a while, ... probably because I was danceing just two meter away from her, ... with my back to her, as I tried to focus on some other potential girl.
But steping on a foot that belongs to a friend of her, made me turn once, and the other time I set down to relax a few minutes (I probably was the only dancer in that club that didn't got some alcohole, nor other stuff in his blood, and so I needed a rest once in a while), she and her girls stand next to me, with their back to me giving a perfect view of her legs, as they watched other people dance. Again with some movements of people, causeing us to see each other.
She did smile. I'm sure about that. I didn't imagen that.
Anyway, she leaft a hour before I did, she didn't sayed goodby.
Any girl.
Any girl that I would have tracked with my eyes that night, ... I could have walked up to her and talk to her, or even dance with her.
But she ... we got a history. I know her and she knows me (at least she knows my past, and I'm not proud of my 'stupid' past). I can't just go to her and start talking ... not without a couse ... not without seeing her.
Well and that why I'm sitting here, infront of my PC, wondering if I actually will see her again, were that might be, or if she dose like me too.
Not to mention how hard it is to get those legs out of your mind.
Greg the Mad
Friday, August 8, 2008
Lazy me.
Ok, what I have done the last few days ...
I played my WoW charakter to the level 68 in order to load it over to the test server.
I downloaded the Beta Client of the Lich King, took me 6 hours in which I was able to do nothing else then to what some more episodes of Battlestar Galactica (I'm currently at Season 2 Episode 5).
And I played a little around with the Deathnight.
... Nothing more ... Oh ... Yes, my guitar playing gets better and better, even if I only can play one and a half song at the moment :)
Anyway, I decided that this playing around with the tools I'm writing dose not get me anywere. So once I find enought time to write some code again, I will continue to work on the actuall game and stop my tool playing for the moment.
Hopefully I'll find some more time to write a nother update here before the week is over, So Long.
Greg the Mad
I played my WoW charakter to the level 68 in order to load it over to the test server.
I downloaded the Beta Client of the Lich King, took me 6 hours in which I was able to do nothing else then to what some more episodes of Battlestar Galactica (I'm currently at Season 2 Episode 5).
And I played a little around with the Deathnight.
... Nothing more ... Oh ... Yes, my guitar playing gets better and better, even if I only can play one and a half song at the moment :)
Anyway, I decided that this playing around with the tools I'm writing dose not get me anywere. So once I find enought time to write some code again, I will continue to work on the actuall game and stop my tool playing for the moment.
Hopefully I'll find some more time to write a nother update here before the week is over, So Long.
Greg the Mad
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Two Front War!
*Exitment*
Right in the moment where I write this, I'm sitting in my room and I'm right in a two front war.
Yes, in front of my I got my regular PC where I will start to install the WoW Addon The Wrath of the Lich King BETA (WooT! I' a chosen one!) and to my left I got my new outdoor Laptop (when I read 'outdoor' in the advertisement I knew that that would be mine!) wher I'm working to get it on the standard I knew from my normal PC.
And to make things worst I got my brothers Guitar at the right of me, and sometimes I can't resist to take the pick and play a few nots.
*Exitment*
Greg the Mad
Right in the moment where I write this, I'm sitting in my room and I'm right in a two front war.
Yes, in front of my I got my regular PC where I will start to install the WoW Addon The Wrath of the Lich King BETA (WooT! I' a chosen one!) and to my left I got my new outdoor Laptop (when I read 'outdoor' in the advertisement I knew that that would be mine!) wher I'm working to get it on the standard I knew from my normal PC.
And to make things worst I got my brothers Guitar at the right of me, and sometimes I can't resist to take the pick and play a few nots.
*Exitment*
Greg the Mad
Saturday, August 2, 2008
1 Month of Misterys
This month gone get interesting.
First I will have to perform the drive safty lessons for motorcycle and car this month. They will cost a lot and bring less, .. but I must do them -.-
Second will I try the 'FH Technikum Wien' acceptance test. If I fail I still can try it next year, and if I fail then I will got a new chance in two years.
Third did I get into contact with a guy who wants to open his own game studio somewhen next year, and I may got a chance to write some tools for him and his team. That will be interesting.
Fourth did I apply for a Beta test of the coming game Sacred 2. If they take me I got one more game one my Beta Test game list ... which contains Halo3 ... thats all :(
And fithly will I get today the guitar of my brother and start learning to play it. Finaly some more music in my life, MP3 are not enougth.
And last but not least will that be the last free month before I start into the last year at school, which will end with a major big test called 'Matura', for which I will learn full six month ...
BUT FIRST! *raise my left index finger* ... I'll take a shower :)
Greg the Mad
First I will have to perform the drive safty lessons for motorcycle and car this month. They will cost a lot and bring less, .. but I must do them -.-
Second will I try the 'FH Technikum Wien' acceptance test. If I fail I still can try it next year, and if I fail then I will got a new chance in two years.
Third did I get into contact with a guy who wants to open his own game studio somewhen next year, and I may got a chance to write some tools for him and his team. That will be interesting.
Fourth did I apply for a Beta test of the coming game Sacred 2. If they take me I got one more game one my Beta Test game list ... which contains Halo3 ... thats all :(
And fithly will I get today the guitar of my brother and start learning to play it. Finaly some more music in my life, MP3 are not enougth.
And last but not least will that be the last free month before I start into the last year at school, which will end with a major big test called 'Matura', for which I will learn full six month ...
BUT FIRST! *raise my left index finger* ... I'll take a shower :)
Greg the Mad
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
31 July
I can't wait till that day ...
First this is the day that my actuall vacation will start, WHOOT!
Second will that be the day the Ziggyware contest judging periot will end, and every following day could contain the answer on who was better than me and who was not.
Anyway, thats still in the futur.
What have I done in the past ...
Yesterday I made a little but importent step towards my game engine. I redefined the Mad-Ed programm, put some thoughts into how it will work, I've drawn the classes, what they will contain and to what the will be connected, etc.
Its not finished yet, I mainly have focused on the backgraund structure and how you come from the saved .mad file to the 3D level (or now 'Screen' called) and back. Also did I spend some time into the question how to control in the 3D window, and I came up with the idea to use the 360 controler for this, so I got a complet free mouse to do the manipulation. OK, its not tested yet, and I don't know if it will stand the praxis tests, but I think that it is a nice idea at least, and will be there at least for fun. :D
Greg the Mad
First this is the day that my actuall vacation will start, WHOOT!
Second will that be the day the Ziggyware contest judging periot will end, and every following day could contain the answer on who was better than me and who was not.
Anyway, thats still in the futur.
What have I done in the past ...
Yesterday I made a little but importent step towards my game engine. I redefined the Mad-Ed programm, put some thoughts into how it will work, I've drawn the classes, what they will contain and to what the will be connected, etc.
Its not finished yet, I mainly have focused on the backgraund structure and how you come from the saved .mad file to the 3D level (or now 'Screen' called) and back. Also did I spend some time into the question how to control in the 3D window, and I came up with the idea to use the 360 controler for this, so I got a complet free mouse to do the manipulation. OK, its not tested yet, and I don't know if it will stand the praxis tests, but I think that it is a nice idea at least, and will be there at least for fun. :D
Greg the Mad
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Physic, Laptop and my room
So what happened ...
My force article and sample finaly is up on ziggyware.com and also did the judging periode start. Till 31 july you can send ziggy a mail telling him how great my article is and that you've learned so much from it.
Also did he anouced that ther will be a nother contest soon. I don't know yet what kind of contest it will be, or what it will be about, but if it will be one like that current, then I already have a loot of ideas for new stuff.
You can find my article here http://www.ziggyware.com/readarticle.php?article_id=199
My calligraphy language, ... well. I didn't managed to get that 3D tool for a win app working again, but I have to admit that I didn't worked much on it yet.
Also am I not sure if I will have time for it today. My room need to be tidied up as soon as possible, the exercises gets harder every day ...
And now about my work ... well, now I'm already trusted to work on complet standards ... Only one week left, YES!!
I may miss it in the next month, as it is something constant in my life (I like to have something constant around me, like a swiss army knife I can count on, but if you forget about it, it will slice some shirts when you mom trys to wash you pants ... ).
Anyway, I'm happy abou it for the moment, and thats enougth.
That what woun't be enougth will be the money I'll get, to purchas in a lapetop. Thos I want (like the ASUS Eee PC, or the ACER ASPIRE ONE) got too less power, or (like the ACER Traver Mate C210) are too expensive. Ther will be laptops that I can effort, and those are able to do that what I want them to do, but ... they are all so big (look at the Eee PC/Aspire One I want that sice!) and ugly (again Eee PC and Aspire One). But they are better then non ...
... And in a year there may be laptops with the features of the Travel Mate C210, and the sice of the Eee PC out, till then I will be able to work with one that don't fits to me that great ...
So Long,
Greg the Madß
My force article and sample finaly is up on ziggyware.com and also did the judging periode start. Till 31 july you can send ziggy a mail telling him how great my article is and that you've learned so much from it.
Also did he anouced that ther will be a nother contest soon. I don't know yet what kind of contest it will be, or what it will be about, but if it will be one like that current, then I already have a loot of ideas for new stuff.
You can find my article here http://www.ziggyware.com/readarticle.php?article_id=199
My calligraphy language, ... well. I didn't managed to get that 3D tool for a win app working again, but I have to admit that I didn't worked much on it yet.
Also am I not sure if I will have time for it today. My room need to be tidied up as soon as possible, the exercises gets harder every day ...
And now about my work ... well, now I'm already trusted to work on complet standards ... Only one week left, YES!!
I may miss it in the next month, as it is something constant in my life (I like to have something constant around me, like a swiss army knife I can count on, but if you forget about it, it will slice some shirts when you mom trys to wash you pants ... ).
Anyway, I'm happy abou it for the moment, and thats enougth.
That what woun't be enougth will be the money I'll get, to purchas in a lapetop. Thos I want (like the ASUS Eee PC, or the ACER ASPIRE ONE) got too less power, or (like the ACER Traver Mate C210) are too expensive. Ther will be laptops that I can effort, and those are able to do that what I want them to do, but ... they are all so big (look at the Eee PC/Aspire One I want that sice!) and ugly (again Eee PC and Aspire One). But they are better then non ...
... And in a year there may be laptops with the features of the Travel Mate C210, and the sice of the Eee PC out, till then I will be able to work with one that don't fits to me that great ...
So Long,
Greg the Madß
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
A nother week has passed
Ok, it was less then a week, but it did pass.
I didn't get any great thing farther with my engine. I may have complet the main 'Independent' part of the camera engine, but suddenly, a few seconds later, I stoped it and changed over to a different project.
Calligraphy is it working name. What it is? A graphic skripting language.
Yes, I know that this is something that nomaly done by guys who actually have studied programming, but why not? Its not the skript I'm faling ... its the Windows forms tool that should be the background system of it on which I'm faling ...
I already have worked with the Windows forms sample from XNA, I even already got a application with it ... but I can't recall how I did it ...
It already was hard the last time, so I thought that I may will now make it to create something I can put into my libary before I start to figure out how to make the skripting, which should be the easy part. ... :D
About that wher I should get my dayly bread, work:
I get more and more work. Now that they know that I'm not only able to draw with CAD programms (and others), I'm able to speak english (stop laughing) and that my work normaly is delivered in high quality they give me more and more complex jobs. ... I hope they don't figure my other tallents out till next week, which will be my last week. ^-^
I take others with me!
Today I talked with the guy sitting next to me that work about game development, and that hes dream job would be to artist, but I never will be reach it.
... "Hey, its not that hard, just look that this job page of a well known game studio, its would not be that hard to reach thier requiraments, time consuming, but not hard."
A few minutes later he was sure that he can become a artist and already looked for the right place for his education in the internet.
Man I'm good.
Greg el Loco
I didn't get any great thing farther with my engine. I may have complet the main 'Independent' part of the camera engine, but suddenly, a few seconds later, I stoped it and changed over to a different project.
Calligraphy is it working name. What it is? A graphic skripting language.
Yes, I know that this is something that nomaly done by guys who actually have studied programming, but why not? Its not the skript I'm faling ... its the Windows forms tool that should be the background system of it on which I'm faling ...
I already have worked with the Windows forms sample from XNA, I even already got a application with it ... but I can't recall how I did it ...
It already was hard the last time, so I thought that I may will now make it to create something I can put into my libary before I start to figure out how to make the skripting, which should be the easy part. ... :D
About that wher I should get my dayly bread, work:
I get more and more work. Now that they know that I'm not only able to draw with CAD programms (and others), I'm able to speak english (stop laughing) and that my work normaly is delivered in high quality they give me more and more complex jobs. ... I hope they don't figure my other tallents out till next week, which will be my last week. ^-^
I take others with me!
Today I talked with the guy sitting next to me that work about game development, and that hes dream job would be to artist, but I never will be reach it.
... "Hey, its not that hard, just look that this job page of a well known game studio, its would not be that hard to reach thier requiraments, time consuming, but not hard."
A few minutes later he was sure that he can become a artist and already looked for the right place for his education in the internet.
Man I'm good.
Greg el Loco
Friday, July 18, 2008
I'm at work
Right now at the moment I sit infront of my new working station (I had to change, to a other one last week, as the last dose not have AutoCAd installed), wondering how I can spend the last one and half hours not working ...
Yes, I said: "Not, working"
It would be bad if any of my future employers would read this, but I got my cause.
Yesterday, my new supervisor (I also changed the department, now I'm in ... in ... call itStandardization) gave me some taff work. I have to make the drawings of a 60 page norm bi-langual ... I got the whole next week time for it ...
... I only got 7 drawings at the moment ... and that makes 24 pages ^.^
I guess I will walk up to my boss on tuesday and pressent him my work, ... 3 days before it should be done :D
... So what could I do? ... I could write the next whole one and a half hour on this post, but ... no ...
I could surfe around in the net, ... not that funny anymore ...
OK, I'll find something, this was just to show you how interesting my work is. Its not bad, the first week, where I hade to do nothing, was worst, but the work I got now ... is some how 'hard' but not real 'hard' ... its hard to discribe ...
Anyway, I'm happy :)
Greg the Mad
Yes, I said: "Not, working"
It would be bad if any of my future employers would read this, but I got my cause.
Yesterday, my new supervisor (I also changed the department, now I'm in ... in ... call itStandardization) gave me some taff work. I have to make the drawings of a 60 page norm bi-langual ... I got the whole next week time for it ...
... I only got 7 drawings at the moment ... and that makes 24 pages ^.^
I guess I will walk up to my boss on tuesday and pressent him my work, ... 3 days before it should be done :D
... So what could I do? ... I could write the next whole one and a half hour on this post, but ... no ...
I could surfe around in the net, ... not that funny anymore ...
OK, I'll find something, this was just to show you how interesting my work is. Its not bad, the first week, where I hade to do nothing, was worst, but the work I got now ... is some how 'hard' but not real 'hard' ... its hard to discribe ...
Anyway, I'm happy :)
Greg the Mad
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Serpentines
Wooops ...
Ther you write a update every second day for your blog, and *ding* ... you skip a week ... Its that easy.
OK, what happend ...
... I played a lot of WOW, but mainly skilled up some stuff and not made many levels.
On the weekend I work a little on my Camera Class, but somehow I don't remember how far I got ... damn you blizzard!
Anyway, I spend a few minutes at work (between some tasks) in reseaching curves. Yes I've decided to use the XNA Curve tool, but it dose not appear that great anymore, now I know some basics of spline interpolation. For example did I find yesterday a way to calculate the length of a curve ... XNA Curves don't got that ...
I don't know, I'll set down this weeked and have a closer look into that, because now with the Cubic Hermite Spline Interpolation and that way of getting the length ...
Now I only have to get the Hermit Interpolation and the length thing together, get that into a code format and ... I could publish a curve class that beats the XNA curve class ...
... Now that I just writen that I realized how great that single thing could be! ... Hmmm ... how to get the 1th derivation of the Cubic Hermite Spline Interpolation?
Ther you write a update every second day for your blog, and *ding* ... you skip a week ... Its that easy.
OK, what happend ...
... I played a lot of WOW, but mainly skilled up some stuff and not made many levels.
On the weekend I work a little on my Camera Class, but somehow I don't remember how far I got ... damn you blizzard!
Anyway, I spend a few minutes at work (between some tasks) in reseaching curves. Yes I've decided to use the XNA Curve tool, but it dose not appear that great anymore, now I know some basics of spline interpolation. For example did I find yesterday a way to calculate the length of a curve ... XNA Curves don't got that ...
I don't know, I'll set down this weeked and have a closer look into that, because now with the Cubic Hermite Spline Interpolation and that way of getting the length ...
Now I only have to get the Hermit Interpolation and the length thing together, get that into a code format and ... I could publish a curve class that beats the XNA curve class ...
... Now that I just writen that I realized how great that single thing could be! ... Hmmm ... how to get the 1th derivation of the Cubic Hermite Spline Interpolation?
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